The following comes from a May 6 story on

A 25-year-old abortion counselor who filmed her own abortion for a contest in March now says in a piece published in Cosmopolitan that she hoped her YouTube video would portray “a positive abortion story.”

“I know that sounds weird, but to me, this was as birth-like as it could be,” Emily Letts, a 25-year-old abortion counselor, said of her abortion experience. “I remember breathing and humming through it like I was giving birth.”

“It will always be a special memory for me,” added Letts, who says that she kept the sonogram and that if her apartment ever caught fire, it would “be the first thing I’d grab.”

At the end of her video Letts, an abortion doula at Cherry Hill Women’s Center, boasted, “I don’t feel like a bad person. I don’t feel sad. I feel in awe of the fact that I can make a baby, I can make a life.”

“It will always be a special memory for me,” the 25-year-old former actress said.

She posted the heavily-edited, three-minute-long video – which shows her in a medical setting for only one minute – online after winning the Abortion Care Network’s “Stigma Busting” video contest.

Although the video purports to depict an abortion, neither the abortionist nor the baby are shown at any time, with the camera remaining focused exclusively on Letts throughout. “I was a professional actress for many years. I loved acting,” she writes. “While I was pregnant and waiting for my procedure, I thought, ‘Wait a minute, I have to use this.’”

The abortion facility wanted to use it, as well, she writes. “At first they wanted to sit down and talk about the real consequences of this. There are a lot of politics involved,” she says. “We knew we could have hundreds of protesters at our door; we could have bomb threats. Working at an abortion clinic, every once in awhile it feels like you’re working in a war zone.

“But,” she says, “I said, ‘Bring it,’ and they were on board….”

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